Friday, February 5, 2021

Underwater

 

The world is wonder and light,
Though with its share of dark.
We see what we want to see.
I'm trying, no struggling, to focus
On all that is lovely.
That dark though, it's a heavy weight.
I carry it like a sinker on a line.
How I pray that I notice the sun.
And all of the beauty it enlightens.
Every day.
And even in the night,
I pray the moon helps me remember
That there is constant light,
that I am not drowning and
I can always surface
and breathe in life
whenever I need it...

Somewhere Inside

  • I keep all of Sophie's drawings.
  • The cleaning bug doesn't usually bite me but when it does it is usually all out. I go overboard.
  • I love things that touch my heart.
  • I love a good heart wrenching book or movie.
  • I believe in fairy tales.
  • I wish I could let go of all of my insecurities and live completely free.
  • I feel like I get on people's nerves.
  • I want to be noticed but I don't like attention.
  • I have trouble sleeping - too many thoughts and fears.
  • Music makes my soul feel free.
  • I can be terribly stubborn.
  • I can be judgemental
  • Mountains make me happy.
  • I secretly wish I could afford to focus my energy on some type of art and my family, not a "job".
  • I often feel out of place or irrelevant.
  • I enjoy detail specific activities.
  • Sophie can make me the happiest person in the world and break my heart so completely - all in the same instant.
  • Chris can do the same thing.
  • I can read a day away.
  • Friendships are hard for me.
  • Philosophy intrigues me.
  • I love Willie Wonka.
  • I fear early death.
  • I wish my mother could be here.