Friday, February 1, 2013

Thoughts

It's been a little while y'all. What a bunch has happened. Not only do we now have a new life to care for, we have developing girl issues with the big kid. Sometimes it strikes me as funny how life wanders it's paths. Many times you think you will be led toward one direction only  to find yourself traveling the opposite way.
That's good. Life doesn't ever work the way you think it should. It simply works the way it...well, should.. We see new things, learn different paths, and adapt to what we need to.
The important things in my life: family (always first), friends, smiling, listening, encouraging, improving, working, earning, caring, loving. After all, aren't those the things that make up life?
I may not be able to record all that I wish I could. Lynora may look back and say "Hey Lady, where is my life documented?" I will simply have to respond that it is within our thoughts and memories.  Mom always told me that life starts moving faster the older you get. I just want all those I love to know that my life is happy because they are in it and whether I leave sooner or later, they made it worth living. Especially those three people who are my whole entire world...Chris, Sophie, and Lynora. It would be nothing without you.

Somewhere Inside

  • I keep all of Sophie's drawings.
  • The cleaning bug doesn't usually bite me but when it does it is usually all out. I go overboard.
  • I love things that touch my heart.
  • I love a good heart wrenching book or movie.
  • I believe in fairy tales.
  • I wish I could let go of all of my insecurities and live completely free.
  • I feel like I get on people's nerves.
  • I want to be noticed but I don't like attention.
  • I have trouble sleeping - too many thoughts and fears.
  • Music makes my soul feel free.
  • I can be terribly stubborn.
  • I can be judgemental
  • Mountains make me happy.
  • I secretly wish I could afford to focus my energy on some type of art and my family, not a "job".
  • I often feel out of place or irrelevant.
  • I enjoy detail specific activities.
  • Sophie can make me the happiest person in the world and break my heart so completely - all in the same instant.
  • Chris can do the same thing.
  • I can read a day away.
  • Friendships are hard for me.
  • Philosophy intrigues me.
  • I love Willie Wonka.
  • I fear early death.
  • I wish my mother could be here.